40 kinds of sadness

For the first time, I find a soccer match EXCITING!
I guess it is because I have a team to cheer for!!!

Suddenly feel a bit lost
In God
I dont know what He really wants for me right now
I dont know if it is really God's plan or if it is that I am just useless, when things dont turn out the way I want them to
Can He just seriously speak to me?

But have I really listened?

Dear God, draw near to me as I draw near to You please...