I need a title!!!

Practically spending the entire day with HaLinh! And it was awesome i guess!!! She has always been my type, although there were times when we were drifted apart for no reasons at all! (may be it was a lack of events according to Sher!). But the moment we get back, sit down and talk, we cant talk about everything. Really EVERYTHING!!! There is no word for me to describe how much I treasure and love her!!! And I know for very sure that we are really going to last! Love you dearrrrr!!!!
These days, I have been studying in school until late, like 11pm!!! It was real fun to be alone in the huge school, its like you own the school for yourself!!! As I see RJ when it is at its most peaceful time, I start thinking about how I end up here, how my life has been so different, how I have been exposed to an entire new world with so many new and different people, who make my heart never be the same again! Just random thoughts! But I'm wondering how my life would be the moment I leave RJ! There is just so much to miss!!!! (like the other day, I kept thinking that it would be my last chance to go down and support Xiu, thats why I was dying to go down, and even thought of taking blue slip!!!)
Enough for random thoughts!!! I have not been reading any book in the bible properly!!! Will restart today! I think I'm reading RUTH!!!
And I thank God that He had given me the patience to be calm in a few situations today!!!
Okay!!!

P/S: I really think that I should take back the little book from Barry!!! I sounded really retarded!!! Cant imagine that many years down the road, when he reads it, he will just laugh at me for sure!!!

Fun would be an understatement!!!

Home visit to Xiu's and Dawn's house!!! It was of great fun: we were eating like mad, watching stupid stuff on youtube, and just being random!!!! I totally forgot about my DITD duty, making Chop angry!!! Sorry Sorry Chop!!!
It seemed that everyone would be free soon: Xiu and Jess finished their seasons successfully, Sher completed SYF with gold with honor. Great job friends, you guys deserve a good break!!! After that, they would have nothing besides studying while I still have Interact. But never mind, I love Interact and we are going to make it for IU!!! sigh!!! Jiayou Linh!!!
Thank God I feel happy and lighthearted these days although I kinda moved myself to get used to the new normal and to face the reality that I may never be able to make things the way they were! I thank God for granting me this amazing peace and I just pray that God will watch over you in all situations, safeguard your heart and your mind!
AMEN!!!
I feel realy sleepy!!! May be too much flour!!!!
Tomorrow is carwash!!!(with Monster haha!!!)

Happy birthday to me!!!

One year since the day I received God into my life. It seemed to be by chance that I picked up the book Love Beyond Reason to read, but I believe that God is behind everything, and this was not an exception either. As I was reading the book, God reminded me of how I have grown tired of loving people, and how far I have been away from shining God’s love in the lives of those around me.

These days, I always ask myself why I’m doing this when the person is not even appreciating it, why I must always be the one running after my friend to clear up the mess as if it were my fault, and why I have to care when my friend does not even give a dumb about how I am feeling or what I am going through. In a nutshell, the reason for my weariness of loving people is the lack of a reason to do otherwise. I have always thought that I’m generous in giving and loving, but now it comes to a point when I realize that I have been so wrong. I’m just like anyone else; when too many things come in my way, my capacity to love decreases greatly. Love is demanding, however it does not demand a reason for its existence. If I’m blaming people of avoiding me, how many times have I shut down from God? If I’m blaming people of testing my patience, how many times have I made God wait? If I’m blaming people of disappointing me, how many times have I disappointed God? And if I can’t think of any reason to love others, is there any reason for God to love someone like me? I’m not trying to compare myself with God because I definitely will fail by default. I’m just trying to look at things from God’s perspective and to respond as He would.

This is what I discovered: God’s love is perfect because it is not exclusive to the perfect. And the only way for me to develop this kind of Love beyond reason is to love its creator. Once again, everything comes back to God because everything starts from Him.

Not by accident, my verse for this year is “Beloved, let us love one another for love springs from God; and he who loves is born of God and is coming to understand and know God”. God is ahead of me in all things, even in my suffering for He suffered first.

Dearest God,

I just have one simple request that You help me feel Your love in my life and love You more.

And I thank You for all my friends (both Christians and non Christians) who remember the importance of today to me!

In Jesus’s most precious name I pray

AMEN

Why???

Sick at home today!It seems like the entire world were getting flu!
Got back 3 papers so far!Have a feeling that I will be forever a B-grader for Physics!Sighhhh!!!
Things so far not so good!!!No church still!And problems with friends!I have absolutely no clue what went wrong!
Only until now, I really really understand what it means when ppl say the world may disappoint you, but God wont!!!For only in moments of sadness like this, I realize how much God means to me!And how He has been faithful to me, regardless of whatever is changing in my surroundings!These few days, I keep thinking about how I may disappoint ppl without even knowing it!And the problem is that ppl wont tell you straight on the face that you are disappointing them!So it makes me think abt whether I am so insensitive that i cant even recognize their feelings and moods!!!And even when I realize, it may be just a bit too late!This is driving me crazy i guess!!!And everytime like this, I miss home real much!!!I miss the feeling of being with mum and dad, without having to worry about so many things and to manage everything myself!
After a while, I start thinking that life itself is full of gaps. The gap between what you want and what you need, between what you target and what you actually achieve, between what you think and what you act out, between who you are and whom people perceive you to be, and between you and the people you love. Facing these gaps scares me out cos I have no confidence in bridging them!They may grow wider and wider til a point when i cant even remember how things were without these gaps!
Not going to church kinda created a gap between me and God although i tried hard to keep up reading His word! But the amazing thing about God is that He will draw to me if I draw to Him, He will never let go if I never let go! The amazing thing is that in Him, I have confidence!
I thank God for my trust in His grace then!