Good morning, MOO!!!

Hi my dearest Moo,

I just want to tell you that I feel so much better now. It is a relief to be able to tell you all that I have been feeling, face to face (I’m quite sure that that’s all to it, at least up to this point in time). Yet I hope that I didn’t make you feel bad, or sad. Because please know that I don’t feel loved by you the way I want it to be doesn’t mean that you have not loved me with your best. So I’m really sorry if I made you feel bad. And all the more, please don’t be sad. There is a place very deep within me, knowing very sure that I hold your heart (and you hold mine too); but it’s often buried by myriads of other emotions and expectations. Because of this very special place, that’s called You, I really hope you don’t take it to heart when I said I wanted to give up/quit/move on, etc. I don’t. The desire to be with you is still strong, the thought of spending a lifetime with you is still so compelling that I find it worth the struggle, whatever it is and will be. So I regretted those words that I said to you. As I know it, hurtful words are sharp; they pierce your world, taking away the seemingly-unimportant precious little pieces. They are haunting for you will never see yourself or the world in the same way, not ever again. For I don’t want those hurtful words to destroy either you or our relationship in the most invisible way (like what they did to me), I will make a conscious effort to apologize for any hurtful thing that I throw at you, in the hope to bandage the wound to allow it for proper healing. So I’m sorry MooMoo. We are both young and still have much to learn, and loving someone is a never-ending learning journey, as someone has said “It takes no time to fall in love, but it takes you years to know what love is”. I’m more than 100% sure that I’m learning to love you deeper every passing day, the good, the bad and the ugly. And when it all comes to an end, be it happy or sad, together or apart, I’m thankful that it once happened.

With so much love, and millions of hugs (enough to last you till we next meet)

Your little moo