Happy birthday to me!!!

One year since the day I received God into my life. It seemed to be by chance that I picked up the book Love Beyond Reason to read, but I believe that God is behind everything, and this was not an exception either. As I was reading the book, God reminded me of how I have grown tired of loving people, and how far I have been away from shining God’s love in the lives of those around me.

These days, I always ask myself why I’m doing this when the person is not even appreciating it, why I must always be the one running after my friend to clear up the mess as if it were my fault, and why I have to care when my friend does not even give a dumb about how I am feeling or what I am going through. In a nutshell, the reason for my weariness of loving people is the lack of a reason to do otherwise. I have always thought that I’m generous in giving and loving, but now it comes to a point when I realize that I have been so wrong. I’m just like anyone else; when too many things come in my way, my capacity to love decreases greatly. Love is demanding, however it does not demand a reason for its existence. If I’m blaming people of avoiding me, how many times have I shut down from God? If I’m blaming people of testing my patience, how many times have I made God wait? If I’m blaming people of disappointing me, how many times have I disappointed God? And if I can’t think of any reason to love others, is there any reason for God to love someone like me? I’m not trying to compare myself with God because I definitely will fail by default. I’m just trying to look at things from God’s perspective and to respond as He would.

This is what I discovered: God’s love is perfect because it is not exclusive to the perfect. And the only way for me to develop this kind of Love beyond reason is to love its creator. Once again, everything comes back to God because everything starts from Him.

Not by accident, my verse for this year is “Beloved, let us love one another for love springs from God; and he who loves is born of God and is coming to understand and know God”. God is ahead of me in all things, even in my suffering for He suffered first.

Dearest God,

I just have one simple request that You help me feel Your love in my life and love You more.

And I thank You for all my friends (both Christians and non Christians) who remember the importance of today to me!

In Jesus’s most precious name I pray

AMEN