Sick at home today!It seems like the entire world were getting flu!
Got back 3 papers so far!Have a feeling that I will be forever a B-grader for Physics!Sighhhh!!!
Things so far not so good!!!No church still!And problems with friends!I have absolutely no clue what went wrong!
Only until now, I really really understand what it means when ppl say the world may disappoint you, but God wont!!!For only in moments of sadness like this, I realize how much God means to me!And how He has been faithful to me, regardless of whatever is changing in my surroundings!These few days, I keep thinking about how I may disappoint ppl without even knowing it!And the problem is that ppl wont tell you straight on the face that you are disappointing them!So it makes me think abt whether I am so insensitive that i cant even recognize their feelings and moods!!!And even when I realize, it may be just a bit too late!This is driving me crazy i guess!!!And everytime like this, I miss home real much!!!I miss the feeling of being with mum and dad, without having to worry about so many things and to manage everything myself!
After a while, I start thinking that life itself is full of gaps. The gap between what you want and what you need, between what you target and what you actually achieve, between what you think and what you act out, between who you are and whom people perceive you to be, and between you and the people you love. Facing these gaps scares me out cos I have no confidence in bridging them!They may grow wider and wider til a point when i cant even remember how things were without these gaps!
Not going to church kinda created a gap between me and God although i tried hard to keep up reading His word! But the amazing thing about God is that He will draw to me if I draw to Him, He will never let go if I never let go! The amazing thing is that in Him, I have confidence!
I thank God for my trust in His grace then!
Got back 3 papers so far!Have a feeling that I will be forever a B-grader for Physics!Sighhhh!!!
Things so far not so good!!!No church still!And problems with friends!I have absolutely no clue what went wrong!
Only until now, I really really understand what it means when ppl say the world may disappoint you, but God wont!!!For only in moments of sadness like this, I realize how much God means to me!And how He has been faithful to me, regardless of whatever is changing in my surroundings!These few days, I keep thinking about how I may disappoint ppl without even knowing it!And the problem is that ppl wont tell you straight on the face that you are disappointing them!So it makes me think abt whether I am so insensitive that i cant even recognize their feelings and moods!!!And even when I realize, it may be just a bit too late!This is driving me crazy i guess!!!And everytime like this, I miss home real much!!!I miss the feeling of being with mum and dad, without having to worry about so many things and to manage everything myself!
After a while, I start thinking that life itself is full of gaps. The gap between what you want and what you need, between what you target and what you actually achieve, between what you think and what you act out, between who you are and whom people perceive you to be, and between you and the people you love. Facing these gaps scares me out cos I have no confidence in bridging them!They may grow wider and wider til a point when i cant even remember how things were without these gaps!
Not going to church kinda created a gap between me and God although i tried hard to keep up reading His word! But the amazing thing about God is that He will draw to me if I draw to Him, He will never let go if I never let go! The amazing thing is that in Him, I have confidence!
I thank God for my trust in His grace then!
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