I'm supposed to study for SAT now!!!But saturation point reached, like so long ago!!!So I decided to put a STOP there for my SAT mugging cos I believe in the value of BREAK!!!!
I'm really excited to go home!And I have been feeling so for the past few weeks, which is rather strange!I only experienced this excitement during sec 3; it was something like I would spend the entire dinner talking about what I would do when I reached home, I would write down what I would shop with my mum and I would list all the things I wanted to do and all the plans and stuff!Back then, I could not wait to go home!That sweet feeling gradually faded away as I came to sec 4!Its not that I did not like going home, I guess it was more of that I got used to not being home better, added by the fact that I got busier and busier every passing holiday!The experience in J1 was the worst; I dragged going home cos I did not want to confront my parents about God and church stuff!And it was really quite bad at home; we had heated arguments and my mum ended up crying, which in turn made me cry too!(I take comfort in the fact that both my mum and I are quite dramatic!)!But the amazing thing about life is that I might feel like the end of the world at that particular moment, but as I'm looking back now, that moment is just one in a chain of moments that lead to who I am and what I am doing now!I thank God that I did not get too hung up over my parents reactions towards me becoming a Christian!
This time round it is totally different!I'm going mad over the thought of being home: practically being with my mum and dad, and more than that, practically being at the place where I truly belong!I discovered recently that there are many ways I can miss a place!When I was in sec 3 and 4, I miss HaNoi for the people there: my family and my friends, for the food, and for the comfort of familiarity!But now, there is a new dimension for the way I miss it: I guess I miss more intangible and small and trivial things!Like how I miss the feeling of walking along the pavement in an autumn day, looking at the autumn leaves slowly falling down!Like how I miss the drizzle in a spring morning and my great satisfaction after helping my mum decorating the living room for Tet (the Vietnamese new year)!!!I even miss the sight of people cycling with huge buns of flowers for sale at the back early in the morning!I miss all of this so bad now!!!I also miss the way all the small streets interlinked to make anyone unfamiliar with them easily get lost!!They are messy, but they are just parts of the surroundings that have seen me grow up!!!I want to major in urban planning in order to make HaNoi neater and more organised as a city, but sometimes I wish it would remain like this forever for its messiness, to me, is lovely, and always will be!
I now truly believe that everyone has a place that he/she feels a great sense of attachment to; in the case someone does not, I think it's really sad! My dad has always said that I took after him in being so firmly attached to place! That's why I cant think of myself spending the rest of my life anywhere else except for HaNoi!!!
I will miss Singapore too, for the people here!!!!But I always tell myself to get used to missing things because there will be so many people walking in and out of my life, there will be so many places I will go to once in a lifetime, and there are so many changes in this world every passing moment!It's impossible to have nothing to miss cos we are unable to hold on to everything all the time (sadly, there are opportunity costs in life too) and there are things such as feelings, which we can never ever experience twice!So as part of growing up, I look at it with a more positive attitude!If I have something to miss, I know that my life has been worthwile to me!
I thank God for all the things that I'm missing so bad now cos they remind me to never ever take any moment in life for granted!And pray for SAT tmr!!! Jia you everyone!!!
P/S: Thanks Sher&Jess for the lovely Big miss!!!!I will be more motivated to gain weight man!!!LuvLuv!!!
I'm really excited to go home!And I have been feeling so for the past few weeks, which is rather strange!I only experienced this excitement during sec 3; it was something like I would spend the entire dinner talking about what I would do when I reached home, I would write down what I would shop with my mum and I would list all the things I wanted to do and all the plans and stuff!Back then, I could not wait to go home!That sweet feeling gradually faded away as I came to sec 4!Its not that I did not like going home, I guess it was more of that I got used to not being home better, added by the fact that I got busier and busier every passing holiday!The experience in J1 was the worst; I dragged going home cos I did not want to confront my parents about God and church stuff!And it was really quite bad at home; we had heated arguments and my mum ended up crying, which in turn made me cry too!(I take comfort in the fact that both my mum and I are quite dramatic!)!But the amazing thing about life is that I might feel like the end of the world at that particular moment, but as I'm looking back now, that moment is just one in a chain of moments that lead to who I am and what I am doing now!I thank God that I did not get too hung up over my parents reactions towards me becoming a Christian!
This time round it is totally different!I'm going mad over the thought of being home: practically being with my mum and dad, and more than that, practically being at the place where I truly belong!I discovered recently that there are many ways I can miss a place!When I was in sec 3 and 4, I miss HaNoi for the people there: my family and my friends, for the food, and for the comfort of familiarity!But now, there is a new dimension for the way I miss it: I guess I miss more intangible and small and trivial things!Like how I miss the feeling of walking along the pavement in an autumn day, looking at the autumn leaves slowly falling down!Like how I miss the drizzle in a spring morning and my great satisfaction after helping my mum decorating the living room for Tet (the Vietnamese new year)!!!I even miss the sight of people cycling with huge buns of flowers for sale at the back early in the morning!I miss all of this so bad now!!!I also miss the way all the small streets interlinked to make anyone unfamiliar with them easily get lost!!They are messy, but they are just parts of the surroundings that have seen me grow up!!!I want to major in urban planning in order to make HaNoi neater and more organised as a city, but sometimes I wish it would remain like this forever for its messiness, to me, is lovely, and always will be!
I now truly believe that everyone has a place that he/she feels a great sense of attachment to; in the case someone does not, I think it's really sad! My dad has always said that I took after him in being so firmly attached to place! That's why I cant think of myself spending the rest of my life anywhere else except for HaNoi!!!
I will miss Singapore too, for the people here!!!!But I always tell myself to get used to missing things because there will be so many people walking in and out of my life, there will be so many places I will go to once in a lifetime, and there are so many changes in this world every passing moment!It's impossible to have nothing to miss cos we are unable to hold on to everything all the time (sadly, there are opportunity costs in life too) and there are things such as feelings, which we can never ever experience twice!So as part of growing up, I look at it with a more positive attitude!If I have something to miss, I know that my life has been worthwile to me!
I thank God for all the things that I'm missing so bad now cos they remind me to never ever take any moment in life for granted!And pray for SAT tmr!!! Jia you everyone!!!
P/S: Thanks Sher&Jess for the lovely Big miss!!!!I will be more motivated to gain weight man!!!LuvLuv!!!
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